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Terça-feira, Dezembro 20, 2005

A Long December

Every December I feel crappy for no known reason. It's preposterous to think of myself that way when I enjoy the cool weather so much it drove me to sleep away the remaining hours of the dreary days I spend in the house. I got nothing to do here except Garfield’s favorite hobbies like eating, sleeping, and watching the television. I believe a sedentary life is much preferable than studying sciences ancillary to my field like statistics and economics.

'Keeping time, time, time, in a sort of runic rhyme'

Preposterous once more when this vacation gave me time for blog-hopping. It's an opportunity I don't always get during the toxic school days. Many of them write so beautifully, and their posts talk about many interesting things. Their antics are so funny I rupture my peritoneum from laughing. These are a few of the things that make me want to come back to their sites on a regular basis. I learn so much by reading their posts, and based on the comments I get, they do the same with mine as well. Many of my visitors here have often thanked me for my post about COPAR, which surprisingly didn't make too much sense to me when I read it a few weeks ago. So I'm not sure how it helped them in their assignments. At least I got to help them.

Yet again, when there are so many scrumptious food to be delighted about this coming Christmas eve. The fiesta ham that gives that eternal high, that everyday-is-a-fiesta feeling once you eat it. And Polly Garilao's chocolate cake that I've been talking about in my previous posts. I commend Miss Polly for getting this year's Outstanding Dessert Award from Food Magazine. Can you imagine, her product was made famous only by word of mouth? You guys should be so envious to death by now because you still haven't tasted this absolutely mouth-watering food for the gods.

Oh, the crappiness I sense. It's bizarre, really. I only suppose I feel that way because I don't feel like giving away so much gifts this holiday season although I got enough money to spare for my friends. It's like I'm saving it for more important things. No, even if I'm going to Baguio City next week, I don't think it's about Baguio. Hala! May mas importante pa kaya sa kaibigan?

It's that or maybe because I've missed out on a lot in the past. Those that are insignificant to others but mean the world to me, like the Memoirs of A Geisha trailer that I haven't seen yet. Grabe, some nights I couldn't sleep just because I am saddened by this fact. At sana lang the movie would please me. Also my teacher in one major subject this semester who can't teach. Right now I'm thinking how I am supposed to learn from that subject. And some friend of mine who suddenly maintained his distance from his original friends. I don't know how to approach him yet because I'm not sure if this is how he compensates for his bereavement (long story) or that he no longer feels like spending time with us. People change... People get tired of other people... Well, that's a great adage for this Christmas.

I hate the fact that I've told so many people in the past that I love them and that I'll always be there for them and that I can't live without them. Well, soon enough I'd realize that not only it's been ages since I last saw whatshisface but that it's plainly easy to live without that person. Talk about the stages of school-age and pre-adolescence. Remembering your past just makes things a lot more complicated, but you also get to laugh at some areas in your life, bringing to mind how awfully stupid you were when you were half your current age.


Carnaval took a nap at 10:00:00 PM

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